Monday, January 23, 2017

Choosing to Be (when I don't want to be.)

Ten days ago I got on a train in Drăgănești and headed 7 hours to Timișoara, a large city in western Romania, for 2-3 months of language learning.

I made the decision to come to Timișoara before I even arrived in Romania. Many experienced missionaries recommended focused time for language learning, in a location away from ministry. I had missionary connections to Areopagus, a Christian center here in Timișoara that offers language classes to foreigners.

However, this move has been harder than I expected.

Last week I experienced serious homesickness – for Drăgănești-Olt. God called me to Romania – but specifically Drăgănești. He has knitted my heart to that place and those people. I missed my church, my friends, my ministry, my space… basically everything. I struggled with a lot of negative thoughts: “Was this the right choice?” “How soon can I return?” and “Lord – I don’t want to be here!”

So why didn’t I get on a train and just go back?

Because language learning is going well, and that is my main purpose here. Logically I know I need to be in Timișoara. I like spending 6+ hours a week with an experienced teacher and having plenty of time to do homework. The people here speak slower, which is helping to build my confidence in listening and understanding. God has provided people around me with whom I can practice.

But what do you do when your heart is in another place?

You have to make a choice. I can choose my attitude. I can choose to be thankful. I can choose to be present. I can choose to see the beauty around me. I can choose to make the most of the opportunity I have been given. So for the next couple months I am choosing to trust the Lord and His purposes for me here in Timișoara. I don’t know exactly how long I will stay. I don’t know exactly how I will spend all my time or who I will spend it with. But I know God wants me to be present here, not wishing and wasting all my time away. He doesn’t want me to give up. So I will take things one day at a time, choosing the Lord and His direction. And for now that is enough.


P.S. To my friends in Drăgănești – I still miss you. You still have my heart. ;)  


Monday, January 9, 2017

The Gift of Praying - Together

“Again, truly I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything they ask for, it will be done for them by my Father in heaven. For where two or three gather in my name, there am I with them.”
[Matthew 18:19-20]

Last month God gave me an unexpected gift. He gave me a month of prayer which is a beautiful gift by itself, but He also sent a prayer partner to join me.

My friend Ancuța was already an answer to prayer. Back in October I had several people tell me they were praying God would give me a friend to help me settle in to Romania – and He did! We have fun together, we can talk about anything, and I adore her beautiful daughter. However, at the end of November God gave us both a desire for more prayer in our lives and so we agreed to meet every morning at 7. We began praying for each other, our families, our church, our missionaries, our city and our country. We met for four weeks and it was a beautiful time.

Now, because of the holidays and my soon-departure for language school, Ancuța and I are no longer able to meet regularly. But I want to remember and share some of the things I’ve gained and learned from praying daily with another person.

A Reason to Get Moving

Sometimes we need an extra push to get moving. For me meeting to pray gave me a reason to get out of my house. For Ancuța it was a reason to wake up before her little daughter. There is powerful motivation in knowing another person is waiting for you, and that your time will be devoted to the Lord.

Knowing & Trusting God More

Most mornings Ancuța and I would start by reading scripture. It was a daily reminder of who God is and what His word says.

God desires for us to come to Him. “Look to the Lord and his strength; seek his face always.” [1 Chronicles 16:11] Prayer is one of the ways we seek God and acknowledge our need for Him. This is the fellowship and open communication He desires with us.

God cares. Nothing is too big or too small for the Lord. When we bring Him our desires, fears, worries, etc. it shows that we trust Him to care for us and give us the strength and peace we need. “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” [Philippians 4:6-7]

God is listening and He does answer prayers.  “This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him.” [1 John 5:14-15] I recently read that the more prayers we pray, the more prayers God can answer and this is true! It was really amazing to see the prayers God answered in December, even the small ones – and to praise Him for it.

God is our good, trustworthy Father. Even when many prayers seem to go unanswered we can still trust in the goodness & faithfulness of God. “Know therefore that the Lord your God is God; he is the faithful God, keeping his covenant of love to a thousand generations of those who love him and keep his commandments.” [Deuteronomy 7:9] The ultimate reminder of His faithfulness and love is in the fact that He sent His son to this earth to save us. For that alone we can always praise God.

Fellowship with Others

Prayer is one of many ways to strengthen our fellowship with others. Ancuța and I were friends before, but this month of prayer brought us even closer together. There is strength and encouragement in knowing the other person is sacrificing their own time to meet. But more than that is witnessing the other person’s vulnerability and heart for the Lord. I love listening to Ancuța pray. Even if I don’t fully understand the Romanian language, I can still sense the passion in her voice. Our time of prayer often led to more words of encouragement too.

A Changed Heart

I was already in love with Drăgănești-Olt and its people but praying for this place daily softened my heart even more. Ancuța is a native to Drăgănești and she knows the deep struggles. There is something powerful about listening to someone cry out to God on behalf of a people and a place. There is also power in speaking the words yourself, praying out loud for God to come and change hearts and lives in specific ways. Now more than ever I desire to see the hope of Christ here in Drăgănești and Romania.

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You may not have someone you can pray with daily, but I encourage you to seek another person or even a group to pray with on a regular basis. Pray for each other, pray for your church, pray for your city and pray for the world. Come before God and see what He does!